I also struggle with the same every time I get angry and I don’t know what to do I hate crying so when I get angry I find object and I cut myself I once used a broken mirror to slice my hand till I was bleeding badly or I would use knife scissors and if I don’t find any object I would use my hand to peel my skin unitl it bleeds I don’t feel the pain when I do it however it kicks off after a few days and I began to regret it recently I had a fight with my mom and I was so mad at her I couldn’t help it so I took a scissors and I sliced both my fingers till I was bleeding badly I didn’t feel a thing while I was doing it but now it’s kicking off and I feel the pin I wanna stop I don’t enjoy doing it but I can’t control my emotions and I don’t know how to handle them and the best options for me is to hurt myself am currently going through a breakup and recently I lost my brother it’s being rough and hard for me every time I try to be strong for my family but deep down am depressed sometimes I sit down and I have this urge to end it all but I don’t want to because I can’t allow my mom to lose another child again