Hi I'm S, female and 16 I started sh a year ago reaching two. I remember the first time I had been wanting to do it for years but I didn't then I did. I did it on my thighs cause I didn't want anyone catching me though my sister did and used it as blackmail. I used to do it daily and when I felt overwhelmed or mad but know I do it even when I don't feel happy or sad but I still wanna do it it's like a craving you could say or an addiction. I don't have anyone to talk to my mom's an alcoholic so not the best and if she found out I'm going homeless, my father passed when I was young, my siblings you can see why, my mother hates our family so we don't talk to them, and I have social anxiety so I don't talk to anyone at school too much i did have a bff but she want to a different school she doesn't know she was one of the main reasons I wouldn't sh but know we barely talk. Also thanks to my mom I have trouble expressing my emotions, can't cry, have panic attacks, and super insecure. I think I just might join the army next year.